Archive | June, 2012

Do you self-sabotage? By Linda Lange

27 Jun

Do you self-sabotage?

March 3, 2012

What exactly does it mean to self-sabotage? It means that we prevent good things from happening to us by our own actions, words, and deeds.

Why do we do this?

  • We prevent something good from happening, so that someone else won’t hurt us first.
  • Deep down inside we don’t feel like we deserve to be blessed
  • And if we are blessed, we wouldn’t know what to do with it and be in fear that it would be taken away anyway. So why set ourselves up for it in the first place, so we’d rather have nothing!

Wow… what a vicious cycle! Listening and responding to wrong thoughts is causing our problems. As you see, no one has done anything to us, we are doing this to ourselves! Jeremiah 5:25 says that we prevent good things from happening to us because of our sins and iniquities. So what is the sin here?  Pride and fear (to name a few), oh and unforgiveness is always in there somewhere too.

Let’s take a look at pride. We have ourself on our mind so much, that everything revolves around our feelings. And with that kind of pride comes self-pity! Ouch!

Let’s take a look at fear. Fear always comes when we don’t feel loved, understood, accepted and safe. And since self-sabotage describes a person who has all these things, we need to get rid of the fear that prompts us to self-sabotage. Because frankly, it’s all about relationships!

If we want to be free from these things and truly live in the abundance God has for us, we have to get RID of these file spirits that are working in our lives. We have to remember that these things that we have are NOT us… they are sins “IN” us. Paul even says it this way, “It’s not me, but the sin in me…” If we can get ahold of that, we can get rid of half our problems!

I’ve been ministering to an individual who has some self-pity. Self-pity causes us to self-sabotage! When I mentioned it, the ministry meeting was over… and he left the room. This was a clear indication that he was being deceived by the enemy. Caspar McCloud wrote a book called, “Exposing the Spirit of Self-Pity” and addresses these very things so we can get clean. But, those who are duped by this spirit don’t think THEY are the ones needing to change, it’s everyone else. Yet, when you mention that they may be blaming everyone else, they get defensive. This is a true indicator of self-pity. See, it’s because it’s hidden! No one wants to admit of having self-pity… that is even worse to admit than pride. But… in order to get free, we DO have to admit it! And remember, YOU are not self-pity, YOU are not pride, YOU are not fear, these are things (sins) working in your life. And what does God say about our sins? Recognize them, and repent!

To talk a bit more about self-pity: When we live with someone who has self-pity, they are always looking for sympathy. Someone to “understand” what has happened to them, and sit with them and allow them to suck their thumb. That is co-dependency and then we get into manipulation, we can’t have any part in that. The TRUTH is the only thing that will help get rid of this. But… self-pity will blind them. However, if the person pushes past and says, “Hey, maybe I’m the one causing my own problems” there is help for that person.

I remember when I was dating, I would break up with them before a holiday so they wouldn’t break up with me first! I was on a self-protection mode, which was really self-sabotaging, self-pity talking, and pride! Ouch, Ouch and Ouch!

But I was willing to see the truth IN me, and now that I know that these are NOT me… but sin IN me… then the ouching wasn’t so hard and was able to fight the battle with the Lord, and I got free.

Then, that particular individual began telling me the reason for their disease, and what was going on around them that caused them to get sick. See, that is self-pity and blame. Because if our immune system was working properly, most of our dis-eases would never come. Like I said moments ago, unforgiveness is in there somewhere, and we know it’s there if our immune system has been compromised. There is a slew of dis-eases from a compromised immune system. We have to forgive everyone, including ourselves.

Here is an example: A soldier who was traumatized in a war (and never was healed by the emotional wounding) can actually open themselves up for many dis-eases. Because they faced fear of dying/death, every day… don’t you think that would mess up someone’s immune system? Any time we have fear, anxiety and stress, it causes immune system deficiency, so then when we are exposed to a virus or chemical agent, we can be impacted by it. Or fear itself, can cause heart conditions. And because that individual survived, they have guilt and condemnation for living, and self-sabotages their lives because they don’t feel they deserve to have a life or be happy. This truly messes up with the immune system.

But, if their immune system was at its best, and they were able to forgive, love themselves, this person’s heart would have what it needed to defeat any virus or outside chemical from messing with them. Have you ever heard someone say “They are toxic?” That means they see so much “junk” in a person, and stay far from them. This “toxic” person has truly done it to themselves, through self-sabotaging! Too many people don’t see this, they choose to blame rather then roll up their sleeves and get to at exposing the enemy and destroying the works of darkness in their lives.

I hope today you have seen a little clearer into your life and the life of others, decide today to take the enemy down, and allow the Lord to reign in your heart and mind!

What people are saying about Pastor Caspar McCloud

24 Jun

Here is what people are saying about Pastor Caspar McCloud and the Ministry of THREE, Caspar’s music, and his ministry:

Dear Caspar,
My Mother-in-law had given your book” Nothing is Impossible”, to my husband, which I thought was funny because he is not a reader. I need to tell you, once I picked up your book I couldn’t put it down. You have made me think about our Lord and Jesus Christ in a way I have never thought of. Like you were, I admit I am still in a search for God, but I know now that it is not something that occurs overnight, it is a journey. I am finding that the more I learn the more I want to learn. And after reading your book, I am so inspired. Last week I officially accepted Jesus Christ into my heart by baptism, and I am on a path to enlightenment…..
Anyway if you ever come to Las Vegas, it would be an honor to meet you. God Bless!!
S. C Las Vegas.

Dear Caspar,
Thank you for coming to our fellowship to share your testimony, to share scripture, and call on the Holy Spirit to heal those in need. I have had a chance to listen to part of your music CD. It’s the first example that I have heard of real rock and roll gospel. You were a blessing to us and I hope to get a chance to see you again.
Dr.J. S

Dear Pastor Caspar,

My spirit is singing a new song!!! Literally

We were so blessed by your giving of yourselves to our lives on Sat. night! My soul is crying out to be filled over and over and you are part
of the renewal of my mind that God is leading me to.
D. D

“Dear Caspar,
I have a feeling that God is using you for a major outpouring of His Spirit and presence and possibly
another Brownsville, FL church revival. Only God knows who and how many will be touched by what we do, but we must learn to be obedient wherever He directs us.) This is not to ‘make you proud’ , but, from your testimony and your love for the Lord that comes through in your music, emails, etc., I
REALLY think that the Lord will be using you to reach many in a truly totally life changing way (metanoia in Greek), as long as your attitude keeps in line with Him and His Word.
We’ll be praying for you and your ministry. God bless you and your family mightily!
In Christ,
Greencastle, PA

“Caspar Wow. You are Amazing. God is going out of His way to let you know that you have a
special anointing!!!!!!!! I am really, really glad that God is raising up
battle axes like you to tell the people the truth. It’s about time!

“Article: Story of a friend raised from the dead
Dear Seth, around 1998 and 99 you wanted me to meet Caspar McCloud. I forgot exactly why but I had met him and his family in late 2000 by divine appointment. I thought it was just like being with Jesus. I heard him in a mini concert and he was phenomenal. I was blown away by his artistic talent.
Then, about a couple years ago TBN did a story on him. He shared how God completely healed him and how he didn’t have to take heart medicine anymore.
That was an awesome testimony of God’s power and love.
J. P

Dear Pastor Caspar,
I wanted to give you an update on my health status. My apologies for not emailing you sooner. As usual, I am letting work get in the way of some things but I’m purposing to be more mindful of that this year.

I have seen a complete turn around these last 3 months since you ministered to me. Even my symptoms from this summer have gone away. I have had 3 months of regular 28 day cycles. I have had no pain due to the fibroids at all. I was hesitant to proclaim a “miracle” at first because it was a monthly issue. So I waited for a 3 month marker just to be sure. My mom and I decided to forgo the surgery over the holidays.

I know this was not the result of any medicines or work on my behalf. It’s weird to receive a miracle. One doesn’t get an email or a note in the mail saying “You’re healed”. But I have definitely seen a change in my health for the better. I attribute all of that to prayer and faith in healing. Thanks again for all of you help, prayers, thoughts, and concerns for me over the past few months. I’m sure our paths shall cross again. Take care!


Here is a short explanation of what transpired here to go along with this letter from Stephanie.
A very bright young man who was an engineer I was witnessing to brought me a young women to talk to me one night as I was getting ready to leave my office and go home as it was already 9pm He simply introduce her as one of his co workers and quickly disappeared back out the door.
Now my heart is to minister and pray for anyone the Lord puts in front of me, yet it is our strict policy that we minister two by two.
However at 9pm on a Thursday night I did not have opportunity to call for one of my trained ministers or friends to come and help.
I felt the Lord tell me to ask this young women to drive down the street to a Star Bucks and we could meet there as I was the last one in the building this night.
Sitting in a very crowded Star Bucks as she told me about the tumors the doctors had discovered in her uterus and I soon discovered the roots of her problem.
Stephanie was about 25 years old and wanted to have children someday in near future, the doctors wanted to removed her female parts to be able to do what God designed her to do.
As soon as I explained to her what was behind the real issues and touched on the place in her heart where the devil had a legal right to her she burst into tears.

I suppose the people sitting near us thought she was perhaps my mistress and I was ending the relationship. Fortunately I do not really care what anyone there thought about the scene taking place.
I lead Stephanie in a prayer to repent for her participation with fellowshipping with devils and then by an act of the Holy Spirit as I laid my hands on her the Lord performed a creative miracle and did a creative cure.

As so often the case I did not hear back from Stephanie, but saw her friend that introduced us some months later and inquired about how she was doing?
Anyway I pray this blesses you and encourages you to read as it blessed Stephanie to receive.
Pastor Caspar
Upper Room Roswell GA

Dear Caspar,
We do have one of your new books, but I like to have a book for each of us so when we want to make notes we will have our book to make notes.
By the way, I forgot to tell you, I went to the doctor yesterday and she listened to my heart and said I no longer had an irregular heart. I already knew that after you prayed for me, but it’s always nice to get confirmation.
In Christ,
From Dallas TX

Pastor Casper, I was on Ustream when you visited John Aldridge. John ministers to me and i am so thankful for not only Pastor John but you as well Casper. I first saw you in Georgia at FML in October 2008..I have been walking out of much devastation and MSC/EI..I ask God to bless you and your family each day. Thank you for caring so deeply for all Of God’s Children Pastor McCloud….. I shall want to get your book. Love & Blessings..Gina

I was ministering to a woman yesterday and telling her my testimony. Part of my testimony is being delivered from meth by your husband, not to mention all the wonderful things beinhealth did for me. Anyway, I don’t think I told Pastor Casper what was going through my mind as I sat there looking into his eyes with that “damn” thing manifesting in me. hahaha… I can’t laugh now, but at the time “It” was telling me to spit in his face. Well, I’d never spit in someone’s face so I started laughing instead. Your husband persisted in driving “It” out of me until my laughter turned to tears and peace came over me.
Let me tell you what happened after that though. I left the church and on the way home I got a phone call from a woman I used to use with. She invited me over to “share” with her. I declined and went home. The very next day I got a text message from an old highschool buddy who I never even used with before, inviting me over for the same thing. I couldn’t believe how hard the enemy was working to get me to fall. The next day that guy went to prison for selling meth. How GREAT IS OUR GOD! I’ve never touched it again and I’m am full of the Holy Spirit… PRAISE GOD!
This is bringing tears to my eyes right now. If you want to share my testimony to help others please fill free to do so.
I thank God for you and Pastor Casper and all the folks at beinhealth. Where would I be right now if God wasn’t using you as a vessel.
Keep up the good works and I’m doing the same now.

A. S Talks about the Upper Room in Roswell GA.

Last year God brought me to a small church for mid-week meetings,and now I am going on Sunday. This church is incredible. The people there genuinely love and care about each other. This body of believers prays for each other like no other church I have ever seen. I don’t see cliques. This church practices forgiveness and unconditional love. My pastor gives more Scriptures in his sermons to back up everything he is saying, so we know it is not him, but the Word of God. He studies and then presents only the truth in the Bible. How grateful and refreshing it is to see a pastor preach only truth, not preach what people “feel good’ about.
I think more pastors should be approachable like Pastor Caspar. I think it’s awesome how people can talk openly to him and not be judged and get help…..that’s not in a lot of churches. In so many churches it is almost impossible to even have a discussion with the pastor….

Rolling Stones Manager Eliot Goldstein on Caspar McCloud

24 Jun

From Eliot Goldstein
May 26, 2010

To Whom it may concern,

I first met Caspar McCloud when he was rehearsing at SIR studios as one of the John Lennon’s in the original cast members of the Broadway show Beatlemania in NYC. At the time we met I was working with Michael Shrieve of Santana’s and his new band NOVO COMBO. We all realized that Caspar was quite a talent and Michael Shrieve invited him to jam one night with his band along with Pat Thrall, who was voted guitarist of the year.

Caspar rather amazed us with his musically abilities and we all realized he had more to offer the world then just being a fake Beatle clone. Michael Shrieve helped convince Caspar to soon leave the Broadway production before he got type cast as a Beatle the rest of life, and they headed to Jimi Hendrix studio Electric Ladyland to lay down some of Caspars songs with Shrieve producing. Caspar ended up moving back to England soon after that and continued recording there with Michael Ward ( aka Michael Wadada) who took over as manager and producer.

I recall Caspar saying being in Beatlemania was only one step higher than being an Elvis impersonator. I think he was uncomfortable with being in a cover tribute band before that idea got popular, being the prolific songwriter he is he had much to share with us. After his attorney lost a record deal with Sir Richard Branson at Virgin Records by making too many demands on the label, Caspar found himself on the Atlantic Records roster with CEO and music legend, Ahmet Ertgun, producing. Mind you Ahmet only worked with the finest talents ranging from John Coltrane, Areatha Franklin, Ray Charles to Eric Clapton – Cream and The Rolling Stones.

Sadly Caspar suffered a number of personal setbacks at that time, his dad was murdered in the middle of recording his debut album with Atlantic, which seemed to have a very unfortunate effect on him and his career. He started suffering from various health problems , which prevented him from making the sort of impact that we had hoped he could have achieved on the world of music.

I have known him for over 30 some years and he is a good and kind person, a man of faith in his belief as a Christian and a real gentle man. He truly believes that his Lord has healed him and restored him and now I know he feels that the Lord uses him to help many people. He now devotes much of his time and talents serving as a pastor, trying to help other learn some of the hard lessons that he had learned along the path.

I just want to set the record straight because I witnessed and was personally involved with Caspar and remain a close friend of his to this day Individuals who do not know the facts and have written lies and distortion about this man of God should be brought into the light. I wish that there were more individuals like Caspar in the world. Things would be much brighter and peaceful.

Very truly yours,

Eliot GoldsteinTour Assistance and Coordination

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From UK Pete Clarke

24 Jun

Hi Caspar,
We, as Limeys, understand ‘irony’ of course!!!!! (Yeah, I’ve read some of your biography and I know you were born Stateside, but we’re claiming you as one of us…live with it!).

Pete Clarke
London England

Michael Wadada about Caspar McCloud

24 Jun

From Michael Wadada

World music / Suns of Arqa

I met Caspar when I was living in Greenwich Village, New York. I was working for Mink Deville at the time, and Caspar was working in the same studio. We got on very well together and he asked me if I would help with recordings he was doing at Electric Lady Land Studios, with Michael Shrives of Santana and some of Shrives musician friends who were all impressed with Caspar’s musical gifts.

At the time of our recording sessions in NY, Caspar was performing as John Lennon, in
Beatlemania on Broadway. I went to see the show and Caspar’s performance was exceptional.
However, I did agree with Michael Shrieves that Caspar was wasting his talents and his own creativity on this Broadway production.

During this period Caspar also introduced me to Robert Fripp of King Crimson. I remember this vividly as Fripp was dressed in a pin-stripe suite and carrying a brief case and a Les Paul guitar!

As I recall at that time Caspar had told me he met Peter Gabriel when he lived in England previously and Gabriel saw the talent in him and encouraged him to do his first recordings. Apparently Gabriel also took his demo tapes to London and tried to get his label Charisma to sign the young Caspar at that time.

I helped Caspar find a place to live near me in Manchester after we both moved back to England shortly after our time spent in NYC.
It was then that I finished producing Caspar’s “Messin Round” 45 single on my new Rock Steady Label. I was also managing his career at this time and got him a deal with Sir Richard Branson at Virgin Records as well as booking him to play a number of concert dates. Unfortunately around this time Caspar had some tragic personal events that prevented him from continuing working and his health began to suffer as well.
He recovered some time later and ended up on Atlantic records when he again suffered the loss of his dad being murdered which ultimately ended his deal with Atlantic.

Caspar is a uniquely talented musician and artist who I have had the pleasure of knowing for over thirty years. He is a very kind and genuine man, who because of his love of Jesus Christ and his calling to serve his fellow man, walked away from the music business and found salvation in the Lord.
Yours faithfully,
Michael Wadada

Pastor John & Sandi Aldridge about Caspar McCloud

24 Jun

We have known Caspar for several years, both personally and professionally. Although Caspar is a multi-talented artist and musician and has many affluent, celebrity friends, we were amazed when we first met him that he had such a humble and meek spirit. He took time with each individual he met to either encourage them in their faith or make sure they knew Jesus as their personal saviour.

Scripture tells us not to judge anyone except by their fruits. What we have seen in Caspar is a lot of good fruit and we are privileged to know him as a friend and fellow pastor. It does not surprise me that Ms Mesiner publicly attacked Caspar. As Christians, we will be persecuted by the world. As Jesus said, “in this world you will have trouble but I have overcome the world”.

The enemy tries to take our focus from that which He has called us to do. He warned us of this in Luke 9:62, “And Jesus said unto him, No man, having put his hand to the plough, and looking back, is fit for the kingdom”. Look ahead, my friend, for you are a new creature in Christ and the Master awaits to present you with many crowns.

Joyfully Serving Him,

Pastor John & Sandi Aldridge
Dallas, TX

A British rock star turned celebrity preacher is really

24 Jun

Sunday, June 13, 2010
A British rock star turned celebrity preacher is really just a …
I recently ran across some articles written by a Rebecca Mesiner who is supposed to be a professional journalist. What you see and read in all of the articles is how she carefully knits to a design she has written that seems to have a rhythm, a script and a pattern that she uses as a template to gently guide the reader up on a doves wings to crescendo in the clouds of climactic heights. And Then, drops the bottom out on an express elevator to hell in her hand woven basket! She even uses the same formulae each time, using the same catch phrases like “swaggered into the room”. They sound like a bad line given in a bar and a grandiose, egocentric creepy rant! It appears Ms. Mesiner really has nothing good to say about anyone when you review the body of her written articles. In fact she has gone out of her way to falsely accuse and shame just about everyone and everything she has written about that has gone to print from music stars to restaurant owners.

This occurred in more than one article. Being the fearless heroin — poser, she can back hand a complement behind a former president (not to his face) about his looks while trashing those standing in line to meet Him. Her arrogance is shown trying to show how awkwardly dumb “the little people” are (by kicking them in the knees) due to they’re standing in line all night like fools. In another article called “A British rock-star-turned-celebrity-preacher is really just a schmuck from Cleveland Heights”According to one source an elderly couple named Peter and Heidi Spencer who she interviewed a few years ago about a man named Caspar McCloud-who changed His name to start a new life ( due to a bad childhood).

What was the big deal about? He was traveling back and forth from England to Ohio, later was going to star in Beatlemania as John Lennon and instead made a decision to be signed on to a record label later going on to become a church and street Preacher. And even if Caspars name i’snt on the old beatlemania roster, that does not negate the fact that he was there on stage, was hired, but changed his mind before rehersals were really underway. Everyone states Caspar was in fact there. Or why is this a well known issue? People are of different opinions as they are in variety of remembering the color and make of a get-away car from a bank and of the time of day!!

Upon detailed research, She lied to them about why she wanted to interview them. They said Ms. Mesiner would never return some things she “borrowed” from them that she claimed she needed to help her write her foul article which consisted of some sought after collector items of recordings and memorabilia of a friend of theirs. Not only that, it seems she did the article for a close friend of hers as a vendetta for her breakup with Caspar years earlier. Because Ms. Mesiner can become reckless as she went on her self-appointed assignment to find some dirt, exaggerate facts and generally tried Her best skills at seeking out a story to create “drama” while causing as much damage as she could. In this case there was a death involved with a court case. Caspar McCloud is a musician and former recording artist for Atlantic Records who became a Preacher helping the street poor and lifting peoples spirits while creating family quality concerts.

When she could not find enough dirt on him she just started making things up flagrantly trying to open closed wounds without a care in the world but how good she looks tearing down anyone for her glory as a “journalist”. Then she pulled the “Jew” word.. and she is Jewish too! Then she enlisted a former beatlemania actor who seems eager to have had a grudge to fuel her fire and try to “justify” her overblown journalism. He was just another pawn in her game like Dale, the editor of House2House and The Georgia Christian Alliance, the state’s largest Christian lobbying group-Mrs Sadie Fields who basically states no one can have a near death experience and get spiritually right in an ER… I know one thing for sure… Ask a former active duty military veteran war serviceman about how everyone starts praying to anything in a fox-hole during a deadly fire-fight, and you’ll get a positive response every time!

We have seen many jealous actors and musicians play and fight against another to make their light shine a little brighter. Just look at the wars between pop-stars who are too close alike! And “believability” is hard in this world as it is!!! The fact is — that most people would find it hard to believe that a person they know met Elvis Presley backstage at a 1973 concert in Hawaii..or that He went to a hospital room in Memphis Tenn to uplift the spirits of a little girl who had a head injury just before a concert. They just can’t believe things that they don’t experience. And I know it’s hard too! But the fact is that someone does met stars and play guitar with Gene Simons of Kiss in a studio in NY if your in the right place and time. Things do occur. The last stars I was talking too was Sharon Stone in Las Vegas & Patty Labelle in Atlanta GA.

People in this world need a doctor!- Not self centered glory hounds! Isn’t it more important what someone is doing today to help make the world a better place then whatever they did so many years ago? Everyone deserves a second chance! I like to ask what is Ms, Mesiner doing to help this trouble world when her articles are so heavy laden with negativity? Can she actually be without any “sin” in her life that enables her to cast the first stone at someone else? OK, several stones at the masses… But “dirt is cheap next to the —dump”. And what does go around — comes around. And as the old saying goes, “The one who smelt it is the one who dealt it”.

I have grant to an email from Ms. Heidi Spencer (an elderly lady) who said “that reporter Rebecca Mesiner should be sued for the slanderous things she wrote about their friend and how she misquoted the things they shared with her deceiving them into believing she was writing something positive about their friend Caspar”They also said Ms. Mesiner would not even so much as return any of their numerous phone calls to her after they discovered the article she wrote and published on the internet when all they really wanted was for her to return the things she “ borrow” from them.

I searched the internet and recently discovered that Rebecca Mesiner lost a past beauty contest for the sexiest reporter in Cleveland Ohio. That is not really so surprising, maybe the judges actually did their job here, because after you read some of her articles, like some that appear in the Scene Magazine she has written for, you quickly discover that Ms. Mesiner is really one of the ugly, self seeking, self centered thinking people in this world. Because, “Ugly thoughts equal ugly actions!”

I suppose like most of the “mean girls” (remember that 2004 movie)? and ugly acting people in this world, Ms. Mesiner just goes about littering and expects someone else to clean up the mess she made. This reminds me of the BP oil situation in the Gulf as is pollutes the earths waters, kills sea life and rare land animals. So now I must take the time to write this in hopes to expose her callous heart and tainted view of those people she writes about while trying to destroy their names and reputations, and generally stepping on them like the queen she is posing as.

So there you have it. Ms. Rebecca Mesiner had joined the league of one of the ugliest people in this world who attacks people with her articles with words like schmuck in her headlines showing her great skill and command of the English language as a want to be journalist. We really hope you get your act together someday and use your clever talents you do have to help make this world a better place with real hero journalism — without the fake drama!
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